A Story on Moving Grief

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I could feel it just sitting next to her on the bus. It was this buzzy anxious repelling force that didn’t want to be touched.

She didn’t want it to spill out, she was the retreat facilitator for god’s sake.

She was holding it tight to her chest, quite literally.

I could visualize where my hands needed to go.

In between her storytelling and laughing, she got quiet for a moment.

I wanted to connect with her, and I needed to speak to the emotional elephant in the room.

I put my hand on her chest, and said, “I feel something here.”

She was taken a back, then immediately said it was the grief she was holding from her recent miscarriage.

I said it feels like there’s a layer of anxiety protecting it then a heavy sadness under it.

That’s when the pain started to reveal itself.

First, I brought awareness.

Then, I gave her permission to feel.

Then, it began to move in her and work through me.

I started burping as I normally do when I move energy.

People ask me what it all means — if the energy is moving through my body and out, or if I’m taking it on.

I can’t really tell you the specifics because it’s magic and healing and beyond the logic of the mind.

It just happens.

I give it up to the universe to alchemize and do what it will.

It began to shift and the heaviness started to lift from her chest.

She needed water to cleanse it out fully.

Good thing we were headed to a waterfall.

She sat in disbelief and commented that she hadn’t been able to move this body-based grief since it happened for her.

And now, it’s gone.

I can’t turn it off when I’m around big emotions.

I expose the subconscious emotions that lay under the surface for my clients.

And I trust that what needs to be felt will be felt, and what needs to move will move when they are ready.

This is the medicine of feeling at home in your body when you choose to turn towards your pain, your anger, your grief, and your fear.

The relief of being able to move in your life with more joy, more lightness, more peace, more ease, and more capacity to show up for your clients, your family, your friends and yourself.

This person was so moved by the experience that she has asked if she can share the story from her perspective, too. So I’ve shared further down in this email how she described this experience so you can read for yourself — from the horse’s mouth, just how powerful this work is.

One thing I’ve struggled with in my work is the deep level of intimacy and unconscious aspect that makes it really difficult to tell you, tangibly, what’s really possible when we work together. 

I am going to be more intentional about sharing these stories with you, so that you can see for yourself just what’s possible when we fully feel our emotions, learn how to release and allow more joy into our lives — all through our bodies. Learn more about my services here.

~ Jillian xx